I am teaching my yearly Christmas Mini Book workshop this Saturday, November 29 from 10:00am - 2:30pm at Treasured Memories. I think this might be my favorite one yet. It was a process getting it created this year and I really had to dig for the creativity but it came out wonderfully. To see all the class details pop on over to here to read all the details.
Tuesday, 25 November 2014
Monday, 24 November 2014
I went back to work on Friday. It was awful. I felt so overwhelmed. Like the walls were closing in on me. Customers didn't know about my Dad, I knew that that would be the case. I guess I just hoped everyone would know so that I wouldn't have to talk about it. Or that people wouldn't complain about things that just didn't matter to me. That I wouldn't have to pretend to be OK when all I wanted to to was scream. Everyone just went on with their life when mine came to a crashing halt. That is difficult to accept. That life will and must go on. Everyone is just "themselves" but not me, I am a different person on a day to day basis. I am sad and indifferent about many things. I have a different outlook I am numb. But thankfully I am also still funny, I can find beautiful things to smile about, I can laugh. Then a wave of grief crashes into me and I am back to the hard stuff. I can see that there will be an ebb & flow to this but I am struggling. There are days when I am so exhausted by all of it I can barely form thoughts. Friday was one of those days and I wasn't sure what to expect at work. I got in my car at the end of the night and burst. All the emotion I bottled up at work came flooding out. I cried the whole way home. I yelled in my car. I got into bed and crashed.
Then I hosted my Project Life crop on Saturday night and it was completely the opposite. I was ok, I had a good time. I kept busy to keep my thoughts at bay. I spoke to friends about my Dad and didn't break down. I got hugs and sweet wishes. I even made a new friend. I can say that I was sick to my stomach to go to that shift but once I got there and saw a room of familiar faces I slowly eased out of the sickness. I hope every shift won't be like that but I suspect it may. Much like my days that are "one step at a time" I think working will be the same. Facing people and "moving on" will be the same. The ebb & flow is hard. Feeling broken is hard. Not knowing what to expect next it hard.
Today I am typing this out, drinking coffee in my jammies, and watching Anna play play doh. It is nice and feels "normal" in a place of unbalance and I am incredibly grateful for those moments.
Thursday, 20 November 2014
Among all the sadness something wonderful happened- this gorgeous spirit turned 4! Cory and I headed home from my parents so that we could be here for Anna's birthday on November 12. I, as usual, went overboard with decorations and it was totally worth it! I made a "Frozen" cake & cupcakes and they were delicious. There were presents & more presents & there were even more balloons and Miss Anna was over the moon! All those little details never go unnoticed with her and I love that about her.
In the afternoon we headed to Auntie Karen's for a little birthday party and it was wonderful. When Cory got home from work we ate Anna's meal choice- fries & chicken nuggets and then we ate cake. It was a wonderful day full of joy and I am so grateful for her and that we were able to make her day all about her.
Happy Birthday my sweet girl. Here is to many, many more magical birthdays.
We love you.
Monday, 17 November 2014
On November 6 my dear Dad past away from a heart attack. Our lives literally stopped as our hearts broke wide open. I still am unable to fully comprehend what has happened. I ache. I simply can not believe that he is gone. Our lives are left with an emptiness and a sadness I could never have imagined.
I spoke at his service this past Thursday. Speaking of him, his laugh, his smile, his goofiness, his silly side, his hot temper, his love. He was extraordinary. It was overwhelming and beautiful to see hundreds of people come and pay their respects and share their stories. To see all the lives that my Dad's life touched was truly amazing. To hear other people speak of him so highly was amazing.
I am so sad and I miss him so much. I find I go numb when I think of the days to come, a future without him, it is just too much to think about. I have had good days, today is not one of them. My nights are long and full of tears. It is really tough to "get back to normal" when life won't ever be the same. To keep on keeping on as I face the grief. My heart aches for my Mom, for my brother, for our children.
Because I am intelligent and wise I know that this grief will ease and that the stretches between sadness and feeling lost will grow wider. But because I am hurting I don't believe it. I can't see it.
"There is a crack in everything. That is how the light gets in."
Thursday, 30 October 2014
We started day 3 in Disneyland and immediately went to meet Mickey & Minnie. By mid day on Day one we realized that the Characters were always in the same spot day in and day out and if I actually read the map it says where Characters will be right on it and what times they go there. You won't know who but it will always be someone wonderful.
Meeting Minnie was pretty exciting for Anna.
Then came Mickey and I captured this AWESOME expression!
She also met Chip & Dale and Goofy- who was just that- completely goofy. He signed his name on the back of his head and Anna still talks about how "crazy" that was.
We headed over to Pixie Hallow to meet Tinkerbell. Sometimes you think "What is taking so long?" when you're waiting in line but then when you get in there and realize it takes a little bit longer because these characters spend actual time with each kid- this makes me so happy. Tinkerbell was teaching Anna how to fly as we were heading to the Dumbo ride next. So great.
After we rode a couple rides in Disneyland we headed over to California Adventure. We purchased "park hopper" tickets which allows you to go back & forth between parks.
We rode my favorite ride- Grizzly River Run and got soaked, we rode Ariel's Undersea Adventure, and then stopped for a picnic. We hit up Target on day 1 for snacks and veggies so we weren't spending as much on food in the park. A daily stop at Wetzel Pretzel was a must however. The picture of Cory with the Sword & the Stone is from later this day when we went back to Disneyland. (we did a lot of walking this day)
We went to Cars Land and checked out Radiator Springs! You Guys! This place is amazing! We met Mater & Lightening McQueen, had our photo taken at every professional stop and drank an insane amount of water- it was +40.
As I mentioned in day 2 of our adventure we had the photo pass and were able to pose for all the photographers and not worry about choosing. Here Anna was too busy eating ice cream so Cory & I had to have all the fun without her. I loved going through the photos and seeing what they added into the photo after the fact.
Riding the Radiator Racers ride was a must on my to do list, we waited 35 minutes for this ride, it was the longest we waited for anything and it actually wasn't that bad, even in the heat. The ride was awesome! All three of us loved it!
We headed back to Disneyland as we had a reservation to meet Elsa & Anna from Frozen (I'll talk about reservation lines in a later post). Anna, of course, was super excited!
After dinner & a few rides we went back to California Adventure (park hopper pass = awesomeness) to end our day with The World of Color show and a few more photo ops.
One word: AMAZING.
I included the link to their site for you to read about it if you'd like, it is a must see.
Today was a long, amazing day. Anna fell fast asleep and Cory & I took our time heading home, enjoying the warm evening and perhaps another stop at Wetzel Pretzel.
Until next time...
Wednesday, 29 October 2014
Christmas Card Class
This is a card class that I will be teaching at Treasured Memories on November 5 from 6:00pm-8:30pm. The details can be found here, but I am loving these papers from Simple Stories' DIY collection.
The blog this week has been very much about business but I promise you a Disneyland Adventure tomorrow... until then.
Tuesday, 28 October 2014
Product: transparency: Studio Calico, pattern paper: My Mind's Eye, "you are loved": Crate Paper, enamel stickers & corner chipboard: My Mind's Eye
I love square photos, LOVE them. I have mine printed at London Drugs and it makes me even happier that not only do they print 4x4 but 5x5, 6x6 & 8x8 also! I have my 12x12's printed at Costco- for $5! London Drugs is a higher price tag than other photo labs but the quality is generally quite good and for now no one else prints 4x4's (local, that I have easy access to). I try to print only my favourites and then cut down 4x6's for the rest. For this layout I started with a 4x4 photo and then cut down my papers to the same. I created an 8x8 square and then added the photos, and embellishments. The design is simple and minimal but I think it looks great and is something anyone can do. I like that a lot!
Happy Tuesday Friends!